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Richmond Walker Speaking in Rutland, Vermont in 1958 |
The author of Twenty-Four Hours a Day tells the story of his own life.
Born Aug. 2, 1892; joined A. A. in May 1942; died Mar. 25, 1965
G.C. The old timers in Indiana say over and
over again that they got sober on two books: the Big Book and the Twenty-Four
Hour book. Phrases and topical advice from both books are sprinkled throughout
everything they say when they talk about their own experience of the program,
and when they give advice to newcomers. You can get even more out of the
Twenty-Four Hour book after you have read Rich's lead and begin to realize how
often he was speaking, particularly in the large print section at the top of
each page, about his own personal experiences, both during the years when he was
destroying his life through drink, and afterwards in recovery. He joined A.A. in
Boston, Massachusetts, in 1942 (only three years after the publication of the
Big Book), and taught the early A.A. groups how you carried out the spirit of
the eleventh step: "Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our
conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of
His will for us and the power to carry that out."
Rich finished putting the Twenty-Four Hour book together in 1948, after he had
moved down to Daytona Beach, Florida, and at first printed and distributed it on
his own. In 1953, he asked the New York A.A. office to take over this task,
which had become totally overwhelming (around 10,000 copies a year were being
ordered at some points), but Bill W. said they could not do it either. In 1954,
Patrick Butler at Hazelden offered to take over this mammoth job to keep the
book available.
Richmond Walker:
I was born in Brookline, Massachusetts, when my father and mother lived at 108
Upland Road (although I was not born in this house, but on Irving Street while
the house was being built). My father was a lawyer by profession, although he
did not practice law but went in for politics most of his active life.
My father's father, Grandfather Walker, lived in Worcester, Massachusetts, when
he was first engaged in shoe manufacturing and later became United States
congressman from Worcester. He served many years in the U.S. Congress in
Washington, D.C., and was known as the Grey Eagle of Lake Quinsigamond, which
was the name of a lake near Worcester. My grandfather sold out his business to
the United Shoe Manufacturing Company and used this money to build buildings in
Worcester, Boston, and Chicago.
My father became manager of the Walker Building in Boston and also spent a lot
of time in politics, starting as school committeeman in Brookline,
Massachusetts. He was later sent to the Massachusetts state legislature in
Boston as a representative from Brookline, and later served as speaker of the
house in 1905, 1906, and 1907. He ran for governor on the Republican ticket and
later on the Bull Moose ticket, but was defeated both times--he was well-liked
by members of the legislature, but he would not have anything to do with
political bosses. He was a thoroughly honest politician, serving from a sense of
duty and not for financial reward. He was a friend of Republican President
William Howard Taft and of President Theodore Roosevelt, as well as many other
prominent men.
My mother was born in Providence, Rhode Island, the daughter of a cotton
manufacturer, and met my father when he was attending Brown University. They
were married in 1888, and came to live in Brookline, Massachusetts.
My older brother Joseph was the first born, and I was born a year and a half
later on August 2, 1892. I always played second fiddle to my brother Joe, who
was older, stronger, and better loved than I was. I was a lonesome kid who felt
he was not loved enough or appreciated enough by my mother and father. They
considered me a problem child, which I was. I showed very little affection for
my family. My younger sister Dorothy was born, and died in infancy of
diphtheria. Then my young brother George, and my two younger sisters Katharine
and Evelyn.
My other brother Joe and I spent our early years in the summer on my Grandfather
Walker's farm in New Hampton, New Hampshire. My brother Joe went to Volkman's
School in Boston and later to Yale University, where he was graduated in 1913. I
went to St. George's School in Newport, Rhode Island, and later to Williams
College, where I was graduated in 1914. I finished my college work in three and
a half years, and spent the last six months traveling abroad with Mason
Garfield--we returned to Williamstown to receive our degrees on June 4, 1914.
During the First World War, I served in the Medical Corps and later received a
second lieutenant's commission in the Sanitary Corps as adjutant of Evacuation
Hospital No. 54. I did not get overseas. My brother Joe served in the Marine
Flying Corps. After the war I went into the wool business in Boston with my
brother Joe, founding our own business, Walker Top Company, where I worked for
thirty years.
When I was thirty years old, on May 8, 1922, I was married to Agnes Nelson of
Boston, Massachusetts. We had four children: Hilda (who died), Caroline, John,
and David. We lived in Chestnut Hill, Massachusetts, just outside of Boston,
where we had a very nice house built for us by my brother Joe. In 1932 during
the depression, we sold this home and moved to Cohasset, Massachusetts, where we
bought a house on the water. Here the children were brought up, but I was
drinking too much at the time.
After leaving college, and during the war and prohibition, I began to drink
quite heavily. My disposition, perhaps due to a rather loveless youth, disposed
me to become an alcoholic, but I drank for a long time during which my
alcoholism remained dormant. After my marriage, and during the growing up of my
children, I drank more than I should have. I consequently missed the
companionship I should have had with my wife and children. After about nineteen
years of marriage, at the age of [forty]-nine, I became separated from my wife
and children. My alcoholism had become evident, and my wife rightly refused to
put up with it any longer. (In 1939, I had joined the Oxford Group, and stopped
drinking for two and a half years, but after two and a half years I began
drinking again. This lasted for a year and a half, and during this time I landed
in several hospitals, culminating with [the] separation from my wife and
children.)
In 1942 when I was fifty years old--and after thirty years of drinking--I
finally joined Alcoholics Anonymous. I had been separated from my wife for about
nine months, but upon my joining A.A., she decided to take me back. I have not
had a drink of any kind of intoxicating beverage [since that time]. I have
enjoyed a happy married life and the companionship of my children. Joining
Alcoholics Anonymous was the best thing I had done in my life since I started
drinking at the age of twenty.
The twenty years before I started drinking were good on the whole, except in my
early childhood when I was a problem to my parents. But from the time I went
away from home to school at St. George's in Newport, Rhode Island--and to
college at Williams College--my life could have been considered quite
successful. I was captain of the football team at St. George's; also played on
the baseball and basketball teams; I was an honor student (next to highest in my
class) and won a gold medal for the study of Greek. At Williams, I was also
quite successful: I played four years on the football team, was president of my
sophomore class, and also president of my graduated class; I was also president
of my fraternity Alpha Delta Phi and was well regarded by my classmates. I was
serious, and did some work for [the] YMCA at Williams; I thought that those who
drank a lot were very foolish. I went through college in three and a half years,
and received a magna cum laude and Phi Beta Kappa key. So my school and college
life could be considered as quite successful.
Although well-respected, I did not make class friends. I was wrapped in a cloak
of reserve; there was a wall between myself and other people. I did not go
halfway to make friends, and there was no love in my life. In fact, true love
has always been a mystery to me. As a child I was not loved, and as a result I
have never learned to truly love others. I was poorly adjusted to life, being
self-contained, egocentric, immature, easily hurt, and overly sensitive.
After I was graduated from college I got in with a drinking crowd, and from the
first I found that drinking loosened me up and allowed me to enjoy the company
of others--especially drinkers like myself. Soon alcohol became a crutch to me,
which enable me to enjoy life: the companionship of girls, parties, football
games, and all of my activities.
After the war, I went into the wool business with my brother Joe in Boston. We
had a house on Beacon Hill, with a Japanese servant, and we did a lot of
entertaining. Although I went to the office every day, I never was much of a
businessman--it did not really interest me. But I enjoyed drinking parties and
gay times.
After ten years of this gay drinking life, I got married at the age of thirty.
Agnes Nelson and I had been on parties together and we were good companions. We
eloped and were married at the Little Church Around the Corner in New York. We
went to Winnepesaukee in New Hampshire on our honeymoon, then took an apartment
in Brookline, Massachusetts. It was not before our first child Hilda was born
that our marriage was finally announced to my family. It was part of my nature
to be secretive about most things, and this applied to my marriage. After it was
announced however, we were well-received by my family.
My brother Joe, at the time, was building houses in addition to his wool
business, and he built us a fine house in Chestnut Hill, Brookline. Here our
first three children were brought up in their early youth. We became friends
with a family who lived nearby, and together we went on several trips to the
West Indies, Havana, and Canal Zone. I was drinking a lot on these journeys, and
my alcoholism was becoming more evident as time passed. After we had been
married for two years, I bought a summer cottage in Siasconset on Nantucket
Island, where we spent our summers. Our friends there were a heavy drinking
crowd, and my alcoholism developed rapidly.
In 1932, during the depression, we sold our home in Chestnut Hill and moved to
Cohasset, twenty-five miles south of Boston, where we bought a smaller house on
the harbor. Here our youngest child David was born, and the older children
(Hilda, Carol, and John) were brought up. I continued to take the train to
Boston and go to the office, but my heart was not in it.
Hilda died at the age of twelve from spinal meningitis, which she contracted at
a summer camp on Cape Cod. My drinking increased measurably: I was arrested
three times for drunken driving and landed in several hospitals. I was lying in
a hospital when my wife sent a lawyer to tell me she did not want me around any
longer. In this she was certainly justified--I was of no use as a husband or
father to my children. After leaving the hospital, I went to Nantucket and
stayed quite drunk most of the summer. In the fall, I got a room on Beacon
Street in Boston where I lived alone. I still went to the office but I was not
much use as a businessman. My brother Joe was very broad-minded to put up with
me, because I spent much of my time away from the office. (After Hilda's death I
had resigned as a partner in the firm; Agnes and I took a trip to Sweden, and
upon our return I went back to the office, not as a partner, but as a clerk
working on statistics.)
Before my separation from my wife and family, I spent a great deal of my time
drinking, except for the two and a half years that I was a member of the Oxford
Group (1939, 1941), during which time I did not drink or smoke. It was after I
had begun drinking again that I was separated from my wife and family.
While I was drinking alone in the room on Beacon Street in Boston, I became
disgusted with my life and suddenly decided I would do something about it. I
talked with some members of the Oxford Group, and the next morning, in my lonely
room, I prayed to God to show me how to live a better life. I went to Jim's home
in Newtonville for two weeks until I had sobered up. (I had heard about
Alcoholics Anonymous a year before this, but I had done nothing about it.) I met
my wife at my father's funeral, and she took me back on the basis that I would
never drink again--I fully believed I never would--but I had a slip, and after
one week of drinking, I walked into the A.A. clubroom at 306 Newberry Street in
Boston.
At this time I was fifty years old and had been drinking for thirty years. It
was in May of 1942, and I have never had a drink of any kind of alcoholic
beverage since that time. Since then my life has improved greatly. I get along
better with people; I am accepted by my wife and children as a husband and
father. I have learned how to live contentedly without liquor, which I no longer
need, as the A.A. program has showed me a much better way of living.
I have learned how to go halfway to make a friend, and I enjoy the companionship
of other people: other members of Alcoholics Anonymous. I have accepted the fact
that I am an alcoholic and can never drink any kind of alcoholic beverage ever
again as long as I live. I have recovered my faith in a power greater than
myself, which I call God, who can give me the strength I need to face life, and
all its ups and downs, without resorting to liquor. I have acquired more insight
into my defects of character, and am trying to eliminate the blocks that keep me
from a good life, such as fear, worry, resentment, jealousy, impatience, and
selfishness. I have begun to understand a little of what love is, especially
love for my fellow man, but I still have a long way to go in this respect. I
have tried to make amends for the wrongs I have done to people in the past due
to my drinking, and I carry no load of guilt for the past.
I am trying to forget the past and not worry about the future, which is in the
hands of God. I realize that now--this present moment--is all that I have, and I
am trying to live one day at a time, doing the best I can for this twenty-four
hours only.
I am also trying to be of service to my fellow man: I have talked with hundreds
of alcoholics and have tried to carry the message of the A.A. program. It has
been good for me, and has helped me in this way of life. Whether or not I have
helped others is in the hands of God--if so, I do not want any credit for the
work I do with other alcoholics.
In 1948, I compiled a little book of daily reading for members of Alcoholics
Anonymous called Twenty-Four Hours a Day, which has sold so far over 80,000
copies. I have also written and distributed two other pamphlets: For Drunks Only
and The Seven Points of A.A., which have had a wide circulation among A.A.
members.
I attend two or three A.A. meetings every week (except when I am traveling) and
I find that I can never learn enough about the A.A. way of life. I have spoken
at hundreds of A.A. meetings, telling my story of what alcohol did to me, and
how I found a happy way to live without it. Each meeting I attend, each talk I
make, each time I try to help another human being, I am strengthened in this
A.A. way of life.
Above all, my faith in the Great Intelligence behind the universe, which can
give me all the strength I need to face whatever life has to offer, is the
foundation of my present life. When I die, my body will return to dust. Heaven
is not any particular place in the sky, but my intelligence or soul, if it is in
the proper condition, will return to the Great Intelligence behind the universe
and will blend with that Great Intelligence and be at home again whence it came.
My problem, in what is left of my life, is to keep my mind or intelligence in
the proper condition--by living with honesty, purity, unselfishness, love, and
service--so that when my time comes to go, my passing to a greater sphere of
mind will be gentle and easy.
G.C. Richmond Walker is still the second most popular A.A. author in total
sales, exceeded only by Bill Wilson. The teaching of Rich's Twenty-Four Hours a
Day book was based on the experiences of the A.A. old-timers in the Boston area
during the 1940's, together with the spirituality of the Oxford Group,
particularly as represented in God Calling by Two Listeners. This latter book
was a set of meditations, edited and published by the famous Oxford Group author
A. J. Russell, which had been written by two women under the inspiration of the
idea of divine guidance which Russell had talked about in For Sinners Only. In
the fine print section at the bottom of each page of his own book, Rich adapted
these Oxford Group ideas for alcoholics and added many helpful suggestions of
his own for the struggling alcoholic who was still trying to understand what a
meaningful higher power could possibly be.
*NOTE: Foreword by Mel B. (Toledo, Ohio) to 40th Anniv. Edit. of Twenty-Four
Hours a Day© (1994) gives date and location for this lead.
Distributed as a handout at the Sixth National Archives Workshop at Louisville
KY, Sept. 27-30, 2001.
Text taken from the Northern Indiana Archival Bulletin© Vol. 4.1 (2001): 1-4,
published in South Bend, Indiana under the auspices of the Area 22 Archives
Committee (Northern Indiana).
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