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The Test |
Excerpt from Marty Mann's New Primer on
Alcoholism©,
1981 (First Owl Book Edition), pp. 83-86.
There is a simple test which has been used hundreds of times for this purpose.
Even an extremely heavy drinker should have no trouble in passing it, whereas an
alcoholic, if able to complete it at all, could do so only under such heavy
pressure that his life would be more miserable than he thinks it would be if he
stopped drinking altogether. The chances are a hundred to one, how ever, against
a true alcoholic's being either willing or able to undertake the test.
The Test: Select any time at all for instituting it. Now is the best time.
For the next six months at least decide
that you will stick to a certain number of drinks a day, that number to be not
less than one and not more than three. If you are not a daily drinker, then the
test should be the stated number of drinks from one to three, on those days when
you do drink. Some heavy drinkers confine their drinking to weekends, but still
worry about the amount they consume then. Whatever number you choose must not be
exceeded under any circumstances whatever, and this includes weddings, births,
funerals, occasions of sudden death and disaster, unexpected or long-awaited
inheritance, promotion, or other happy events, reunions or meetings with old
friends or good customers, or just sheer boredom. There must also be no special
occasions on which you feel justified in adding to your quota of the stated
number of drinks, such as a severe emotional upset, or the appointment to close
the biggest deal of your career, or the audition you've been waiting for all
your life, or the meeting with someone who is crucial to your future and of whom
you are terrified. Absolutely no exceptions, or the test has been failed.
This is not an easy test, but it has been passed handily by any number of
drinkers who wished to show themselves, or their families and friends, that they
were not compulsive drinkers. If by any chance they failed the test, showing
that they were alcoholics, they showed themselves, too, that they were, whether
they were then ready to admit it openly or not. At least it prepared them for
such an admission, and for the constructive action which normally follows that
admission.
It is important to add that observers of
such tests should not use them to try to force a flunkee to premature action.
This may well backfire and produce a stubborn determination on the part of the
one who has been unable to pass the test, to prove that it is not alcoholism
that caused the failure. He can and does do this in several ways: by stopping
drinking altogether for a self-specified time (when this is over he usually
breaks out in even worse form than before, and with' an added resentment toward
those who "drove" him to it); by instituting a rigid control over his own
drinking, which produces a constant irritability that makes him impossible to be
with, coupled with periodic outbreaks of devastating nature; or by giving
himself a very large quota and insisting that he has remained within it, even
when he has obviously been too drunk to remember how many drinks he had. In
extreme cases, he may even give himself a quota of so many drinks, and take them
straight from the bottle, calling each bottle "the" drink. The backfiring from
too great outside pressure may also cause a complete collapse: knowing and
admitting that he cannot pass the test and is therefore an alcoholic, he will
resist efforts to force him to take action by saying in effect, "So I'm an
alcoholic, so I can't control my drinking, so I'll drink as I must," and go all
out for perdition. This last, despite the expressed concern of some people (who
believe that admitting alcoholism to be a disease, and alcoholic drinking to be
uncontrollable drinking, is simply to give alcoholics a good excuse to
continue), very rarely happens. Nevertheless the possibility must be taken into
account by those who are trying to help an alcoholic to recognize his trouble
and take constructive action on it. If he is left alone after failing such a
self-taken test, the failure will begin to work on him-it has planted a seed of
knowledge which may well grow into action.
The "occasional drunk" usually comes from the ranks of heavy drinkers, sometimes
social drinkers. Rarely is he an abstainer between his bouts, as is generally
the case with periodic alcoholics. Sometimes called "spree drinkers," these are
the ones who every now and then deliberately indulge in short periods of
drinking to drunkenness, usually at sporadic intervals. They talk of the "good"
it does them to have a "purge" once in a while, or to "let down their hair" or
to "kick over the traces" and have "all-out fun."
Unfortunately for them they sometimes get into trouble during these sprees, and their drinking habits are thus brought to public attention. But they can and do stop such indulgences if they find it is costing them too much, for their sprees are their idea of fun, and not a necessity. "Occasional drunks" are most often found among youthful drinkers, whose ideas of "fun," for one reason or another, have come to center around drinking and the uninhibited behavior which excessive drinking allows.
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